Transition

I'm 13 and already I'm tired of the norm.I'm tired of being afraid to speak my mind,to be goofy, to be me.For the longest time I have been the "Quiet Smart Teacher's Pet."
The girl who sits in the front of the classroom while everyone else talks behind her,the girl who doesn't seems like she has a voice but is the first one to raise her hand to answer a question, the girl who gets her paper looked over when they thinks she is not looking,and the girl all the teachers brag about."You got a 110 on your paper again. If I had a classroom full of kids like you I would have no problems'',she goes to the bathroom and comes straight back,she doesn't wander around the hallways",and so on.
All of these things are pretty positive don't you think,but when ever I tried to talk some of the kids at school,I wonder if they just thought I was a teacher's pet.It wasn't always like this,in k-2nd grade I could hardly keep my mouth shut.(mostly to ask questions like...why is the sky blue)Then, after that I don't know what happened.I guess I grew into being shy.It was mostly a comfort zone for me.If I act like I am invisible then no one can judge me,but then started to realized I can't be invisible.I have to be seen and heard.7th grade was just preparation to see everything for what it really was.Now I know that everyone isn't my friend, but associates,that I can figure out my own problems,and that I am a little bit more mature then most 13 yrs olds.My mom says I have an old soul.
This year as an 8th grader I need a change from the inside out.This summer, my sister and I decided to get rid of relaxers and go all natural.Whenever you do something different that is when the haters stay busy,but that is another blog in itself.
Anyway it is time for me to stop lying to myself,except me for me.It is time to kick every person who can't understand that to the curve.It is time to love me and my natural hair.It is time for a change.